Sometimes words escape me. Maybe my day is on “autopilot”, maybe I’m too preoccupied with life to spend time deep in thought, or maybe, on the rare occasion, my mind is quieted for whatever reason. I’ve been working on being more aware of when and why I feel this way, and sometimes, like right now, I am able to step back and kind of look in on myself and spend a moment or two pondering.
I woke up this morning feeling a little deflated and unmotivated if not down. I remember having a dream that kind of made me sad but I can’t remember what the dream was about for the life of me. That feeling faded pretty quickly, but I feel like it kind of started my day off on the wrong foot. I’m not saying that that’s why I feel the way I do in this instance, but it’s interesting to me how sometimes, one thing leads to another and you find yourself wondering what happened to make you feel a certain way. My morning meditation and coffee definitely helped my mood and now I feel content.
All that said, I’m happy and grateful that I’m able to take a step back and assess where I am in my day and reflect on the things that make me feel how I feel. I may not have all the answers, and I don’t claim to, but I try to at least be aware and open to why things are the way they are. And in the end, the act of stepping back and being more aware in turn has made me find words on a wordless day.
I guess I did have something to write about after all.