I struggle with motivation. Plain and simple. I guess that’s not entirely true. I guess a better way to put it is that I struggle with staying motivated doing things that I am not passionate about. It’s no secret that this past year has been somewhat of a whirlwind for everyone, and I feel like this past year has really opened my eyes to things that are emotionally meaningful to me and things that aren’t. But to take it a step further, I find that my motivation for things that I don’t feel deeply about in some way has been waining the more time goes on. I’ve been feeling very much like I need a change. To do something different. Which is why I started this blog, and why I decided to really assess the things I’m doing in life and if they are leading me in the direction I want to be going.
Don’t get me wrong, I know that life is full of things that you have to do that you may not find meaningful or that you might not be motivated to do for one reason or another. Work, school, obligations you agreed to but don’t find rewarding. The list goes on. I guess what I AM saying is that we could all take a step back and ask ourselves why we’re doing the things we’re doing and if we can make even small changes that lead us to feeling happier.
I don’t claim to know the answers to anything, but I can speak from my experience, and it’s telling me that living life on this metaphorical hamster wheel is not what I want to be doing. The mundane day to day life is not how I want to spend my existence.
I don’t want the world to happen to me. I want to happen to the world.